Crushed

I cant believe how much of an emotional person I am. I mean, I don't normally reveal that to people unless I become really close to them but even then, Its just not one of those things I want to announce to the world, you know? Everyone always sees me as such a strong and grounded person. I hear it all the time. It's like, If I don't at least pretend to be mostly that person, than everyone's perspectives of me will be crushed. I mean, I am strong, but that doesn't mean that there aren't things that tear me down. Actually there are a lot of things that are tearing me down. Sometimes I just get sick of pretending that my life is so perfect all the time. Of course I recognize that I'm extremely blessed but... Life still throws its challenges at me. I feel like I'm trying so hard to achieve everything that everyone wants for me, Trying to please everyone but no matter what I do, I just cant measure up. I am strong and can achieve a long, but don't expect everything from me. I don't know, that was all I wanted to say I guess.